Joy Past First trimester

On the exact same day, September 3rd, we found out that I was pregnant again for the second time.

It was the weekend when we invited Min brothers over because I have been wanted to cook pork back ribs with Baek's recipe.

It turned out nicely so I was excited to eat (as I am writing this, the thought of it makes me sick even now); but when I sat down at the dinner table, I knew something was off. I completely lost my appetite, I had a piece or two but didn't taste good at all. Something was off and I told everyone that I wasn't drinking that night 'just in case'. 

I am not sure if it was a motherly instinct or my morning sickness actually kicked in right then; anyhow, I had major indigestion in the next few days and I could not resist myself to do a home test. Result? POSITIVE. I could not believe my eyes. It took more than 3 months for us to have Mason. I mean it's not that long but we had to wait for some time and I was expecting the same for this time around. We were happy of course, but Roy and Han-Ah seemed even happier than I was. My parents were worried probably because I am already having hard time working and taking care of Mason. Adding another child into our lives won't help much. My in laws seemed surprised but happy. As usual, they refrained from showing much reaction. We knew our sister and brother in laws were going to try next year so we told them that we were pregnant. A week or two later, they also told us that Vicky was pregnant too! 

2 weeks after we found out about Joy, Moon's family was on our way to share a news. Yes, she was pregnant with a third! Then, we also shared our news and rejoiced all together. I was happy that at least I had someone to go through this pregnancy together but also worried for them because she is nearing 40s. Her morning sickness seemed much worse than mine but she seemed to adjust herself already. 

I feel like my second pregnancy is much worse than the first.

Diclectin did not work until a week later, I feel nauseous at work to the point where I had to close the door behind and rest on my desk for a few minutes. I drove much longer distance with much worse traffic with Mason. My work was much more intense at the time. Perhaps, business at work really shifted my attention and helped me through my nausea? But for whatever reason, I felt much more sick, tired and miserable. I could not imagine getting pregnant again, so no more dreaming of having 3 kids. I think I am done. Literally, I would wake up, barely put anything on my face, go to work (survive, endure, whatever you call it), go to moms, eat, pass out. This is probably why I gained 5 kgs within 2-3 months. 

I at my 14 weeks, hoping that all this will end soon. I mean, in theory, your morning sickness symptoms subside once you enter your second trimester. But just this week, I felt incredibly sick again, not able to keep any solids down for the past 2 days. We named our second Joy for a reason. We want Joy to be joyful as he/she grows up but also to bring Joy to our family. Joy, I think it's about time now.